Nah man, OP is being an immature brat. She doesn't like any of the real, logical answers people are giving, she expects someone to shit out some magical answer and she keeps threatening suicide to everyone who doesn't give her the answer she wants. We are telling her to get professional help and she's saying "fuck you all, I'm gonna kill myself". Fuck that manipulative shit. That's when I stop being nice.

If you read this OP, you have anxiety and BDD. What the fuck do you think some internet strangers can do about it? We can't do anything. If therapy isn't helping you, that is because you're not letting it or you haven't found the right therapist. There's literally no other answer. We aren't doctors and we can't help you. Threatening people won't change that.