Fucking miserable. Locked down by myself, no internet since weds and wont be back on till Tuesday. No music, no xbox, no movies, cant videocall my kid miles away. Key worker and I'm tired of it, I'm resigned to catching this thing, already lost 2 people i know to it.

Resent people with family around them being all baking and board games and dog walking and isnt this oh so fucking jolly and a bit inconvenient.

I come home from work, sit and eat dinner by myself in silence and wait until I'm tired enough I can sleep.

Fuck this clapping and banging pots & pans like seals performing for fish. Fuck rainbows in windows. Fuck empty platitudes about "being in this together".

I'm exhausted, empty & just want to hold my kid & feel like a person with a reason again. Bedtime x