Interesting you mention responsibility. I don't have a ton of responsibility. I have a lot of fun hobbies, a decent friend group and I'm close with my family. I go to the gym regularly, and I'm a decent cook. However, my job (teaching English as a second language to adults) is fairly meaningless and below my skill level. My degree and master's degree are in different subjects. I got this job through doing a 4 week certificate. There's no room for promotion, and it's not utilizing my education or intellect at all. I wouldn't care if I got fired; I could find a similar job easily as there's a lot of demand.

Naturally, I'm not too crazy about my degrees either - I chose both for questionable reasons, and neither is in a field with much work.

When I got the restraining order (I showed up to my ex's place drunk - in my country they're pretty easy to get), I was thinking "I don't care if I'm arrested, I've got nothing to lose. My reputation's already ruined with a number of people". Whereas if I, say, had a decent job as a lawyer or something, I wouldn't have wanted to jeopardize that with any legal drama (as where I live, it can get you struck off).

My issue is there's nothing I really want to do, despite two years of just treading water with this fairly meaningless job. I'm wary of being stuck with another degree that won't lead to a fulfilling career.

I guess I still feel like a teenager, in a way, with a teenager's job (albeit decently paid). I'm not seriously working towards a career, and though I try to derive meaning from my hobbies and volunteering, I feel like I was meant to do more than that with my life.