This seems to be where you do this.

Listen I was abused too, and you know what I realised? That you can't help how you're treated by others, but you can help who you choose as partners.

" It's happened 4 times now "

^ This is not purely down to other people. You're self-sabotaging because of how your abuse has left your mind completely fucked over, thinking you deserve this. You need to start changing things about YOU in order for the shitheads who are having a hand in this to be out of your life.

You let people walk all over you. You've suffered this woman for almost a decade. You know she's hot trash, yet you won't leave? Why? She's absolutely horrible.

If/when you reply, don't have a shit fit thinking I am blaming you, or taking anything out on you. Assess your life fully, including yourself. You'll find I am not far off the mark here because I have been exactly where you are today and I know how self-loathing means you just get taken along with this current of life-sewage and never do anything to try and get out of it.

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