Thanks for the reply.
Unfortunately though, life often isn't "what you make it", shit happens and there's no rhyme nor reason for any of it.
Funny enough, I have been volunteering for quite a while...that's mostly how I had been travelling. I guess I do find some merit in it, makes you feel actually "productive". I probably will consider doing it again, perhaps in a few months time, I'll have to see - but I'll definitely have to change the course I'm on because this is fucking bullshit. Keeping up with the Joneses...fuck that garbage.

Is there anything I believe in? I'm a vegan, so I suppose I would like to see world-wide vegan-ism, but that doesn't ever look like happening. Anyway the animals in the wild are eating each other, it's a fucking blood-bath of a planet. I suppose I feel that the only thing of merit in life, is eliminating negatives. But as I've found out on an individual/personal level, there's no end to it - it's just a constant struggle, for nothing. It's all a god damn waste of time. I can't understand how people can actually be happy.
I personally don't really feel the need to "be the most aesthetic guy", but I feel that because society has those values, I feel like I'm constantly being judged by everyone if I'm not up to the mark. Everyone is obsessed with appearance and stuff.

Finasteride could well make my depression worse, but I can't get off it because it's a lose/lose situation. If I get off it, I'll go bald and thus be depressed as fuck due to BDD and low self-esteem, and if I stay on it, I'm sure it's not going to help my mental-health.

Anyway, I'm done ranting. I'm sure nobody wants to hear this depressing shit. There really needs to be a cure for this balding crap soon, the amount of people posting here about hair-loss is shocking!