[Serious] Why do you believe or dis-believe in God?

I'm agnostic, not atheist, but I don't believe in any of the current gods and goddesses of current religions.

I was raised in a Baptist household, and one thing I could never understand was what we were supposed to actually even DO in Heaven. Family, Sunday School, and the Pastor all talked about how Heaven would be perfect, and we'd spend eternity singing praise to God, and we'd be happy forever, but to me, that sounded more like Hell than Heaven.

I asked my Sunday School teacher about this once, and she got really huffy when I said it didn't really sound like it would be fun to me, and she got really huffy about it and told my parents. I got a stupidly long lecture after that about how I was giving in to doubt and letting Satan into my heart, and all that stuff, and got grounded for a week.

That was the first step, because singing and praising someone for eternity doesn't sound like Heaven to me.

The more I read, trying to find out more about Heaven, the more questions I had (with a big one being "why can a murder who accepts Jesus be let into Heaven but a good person who didn't gets sent to Hell?"), and the more I read, the more I didn't think that Heaven really sounded like any type of Heaven at all.

The more I read about it, the more questions I had, and the fewer answers I seemed to find, and in the end, I had to admit to myself (probably the scariest thing I've ever done, after being raised Baptist) that I didn't really believe in God or Jesus any more.

I looked at some other religions after that, but reading about them from the outside, instead of the inside, and nothing else seemed any better.

I'm not really sure if I believe in a God now or not. I still have a lot of questions, and a lot of things still seem really weird, but I do know that I don't believe in Christianity or any of the other religions, though.

Of course, nobody in my family or friends know this, and I still go to Church and Sunday School, but that's only because I don't want to get in trouble. My parents are really, really religious.

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