[Serious]Believers of Reddit, why do you believe in God?

I'm somewhat secular, and as time goes on I find myself even more so than I was a day ago, a month ago, a year ago. I have issues believing in a God of Gaps, where we attribute things we can't explain to some sort of higher power wherever science hasn't given us an answer yet. Evolution, physics, cosmology, and wherever those haven't provided us with an answer, that's god. I don't know, it's hard for me to only partially have faith in something, but then once a better explanation comes out other than god's miracle, I have to reconfigure my faith or spirituality or belief.

But still there's that part of me that says a quick prayer when I'm trying to make a yellow light, asks god for small personal selfish miracles, thanks god in a moment of immense relief. Because I'm a pussy. I think, for me, god's more of a safety blanket now than anything else. The saying "no news is good news" must be what god sees our relationship as, because my faith skyrockets when shit goes down. If something goes wrong, it's more comforting to think it's part of a plan or that there's a big picture; that something bigger than me is responsible for things that happen in my life and that all my failures and fuck ups aren't 100% my fault. When you fuck up, absolving yourself of even a little bit of accountability is pretty much heroine, so I guess god's kind of my fall guy/girl. And believing in god is also kind of like a night light for me, knowing something out there's got me and keeping whatever close monsters at bay. It's depressing as fuck to think that one day you die and that's it, lights out, one minute you're breathing and the next there's...nothing, just nothing, and thinking that there's more after this and that god's got you covered makes me a little less scared shitless. None of them are good reasons, nothing is because I'm genuinely devout. Mainly I just like the idea that some power bigger than me has my back.

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