[Serious] Bullies of reddit whose victims committed suicide, how did it affect you?

bullies don't just bully because they have larger issues. i was a bully when i was younger and bullied people because i couldn't imagine how could someone respond to it by depression. plus others laughing at your (mean) jokes gave it an OK pass. i bullied so many people, overweight people, people from outer city, saying they are peasants. and so on. and i was actually friends with them when others were not around to make fun of them. i was a weird kid. then randomly i just realized if maybe they feel bad about these things i do to them so i slowly stopped. then many years later i don't even dare to talk to them because im so ashamed. later realized one of them suicided, partly because of me but i was really "cool" kid so when i bullied someone others did it too. and he was a weird kid so i dont think anybody really liked him (i probably made it hard for them too). well i feel ashamed what i did when i was younger and i never done it again, but i feel no remorse about the suicider since life is about adaptation. any person can turn around his life and be happy, i would never accept a suicide from a 1st world country as a fault of others. people live on in africa after they were raped and whole family murdered, yet these pussy people suicide after some bullying? if i could go back in time i would not bully the people i bullied or i would even try to stop others from bullying them by some other little jokes, but i would never feel guilty if they are too dumb and suicide due to these things. i feel like it is the same as if i accidentally don't greet someone on the street and he suicides next day because of that. now is it my fault? no way. i would definitely greet him if i could go back but having remorse about a guy being dumb is unimaginable for me.

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