Yes. Being in an abusive relationship is beyond hell on earth. The day in and day out of walking on egg shells, verbal beatdowns, and physical violence is excruciating. I felt worthless, loveless, and helpless (among a million other things I don't know if there are really words for). I cannot properly articulate how miserable my everyday was, but I can say NO ONE deserves to be treated that way. I finally had enough, and thought there was only one way out. I was in the process of trying to kill myself when I started thinking of my family, and how I missed them. I thought to myself I wanted to hear from them one more time. The first, and only person, I called was my sister. As soon as I heard her voice I stopped what I was doing. I told her everything and she reminded me I wasn't alone. She wasn't gonna let me fall. She said I could get help, it was going to be okay, and she would be there every step of the way. (She even stayed on the phone with me as I drove myself to the hospital and finally got the help I needed.) That was the first day, in a long time, I realized I could choose life, my own life, and that was worth fighting for.
I know not everyone out there is lucky enough to have a sister like I do. If you are out there feeling like there is no other answer to whatever problems you are facing, there is. You are not alone. There are people, so many people, who want to help you. You deserve happiness too. You are lovable, valuable, and worth more. We all have tough times, we all fall down, and sometimes people can beat us down, but we can get back up. Humans have a beautiful resiliency, and with over 7 billion of us, we don't have to fight alone. If you aren't around you don't know what good could come your way. There is enough love in this world for everyone, and that includes you! So if you are here trying to find your own reasons to stay, and can't seem to get there, please reach out to someone who can help. You have something to offer this world, and we all wanna see it! It's going to be okay. The first step is the hardest, but you're not alone.