Constantly feeling like I am not good enough.

Dealt with severe depression and anorexia for 5 years which landed me in the hospital over 10 times, had to be put on heart monitors, feeding tubes, best rest,... Some hospitalizations lasting over 6 months at a time. All this as a result of childhood sexual abuse.

My mental health has been much better for the last 2 years and I’ve been weight restored and am currently in a healthy place where I am trying to gain more muscle but my insecurities (still physical at times) persist internally.

I don’t feel worthy of love and let myself be put in abusive situations. Despite a straight A average, I don’t believe I am capable of reaching my career goals. I don’t believe I am a good person to be around and inherently think of myself as detestable.

I don’t hate myself anymore I just don’t think there are that many reasons for others to like me. I feel like I occupy a place in this world but that space is too big and it’s just too much pressure.