Life is incredible.

The good and the bad.

To end your life would to deny yourself the possibility of the greatest good and and worst bad.

I've lived a very troubled life.

I was born to a drug kingpin and naive medical assistant. Not long after being born my father was convicted for possession and turned dime on a friend for killing a cop. Me and my families life was threatened and my family fled to Oregon. That would be the first time someone tried to kill me.

Later, I would be dragged across the country and bouncing around schools across the US and even in a Catholic school in Belize where corporal punishment(being beat) wasn't uncommon.

Later, I finally graduated from high school but not before reuniting with my father only to see him convicted on drug kingpin charges and facing 20+ years in prison. His capture was assisted by an uncle on my mother's side of the family.

I counted that I was in 13 different schools by the time I graduated high school.

After graduating high school I went into the Navy and tried to follow in the footsteps of some family members. Huge mistake.

During a liberty port I became witness to a crime by association. I didn't actually see the crime but apparently my liberty buddy snuck out of his room at night and sexually assaulted a shipmate. My testimony hindered a shipmates's career. This led to that shipmate vowing revenge and using a friend/family member in the intelligence community to use connections to make me seem/appear to be a terrorist. It's not like the tv show 24. I was attacked with some weird frequency weapon made from some program called MK Ultra years ago. I had to go to senators and congressmen to get them to stop trying to kill me. My senator(Mel Martinez) heard about my case through a letter and resigned shortly after.

I've also been lost at sea while I lived in Belize. We drifted to Honduras.

Due to being different and the new guy I was subjected to a lot of bullying. In Belize that lead to a machete fight.

That's just the bad.

There is so much good. I've traveled the world. I've loved. I've partied. I've drank. I've played. I've seen it all. Most things on my bucket list I've done. Something I accelerated after my intelligence community woes.

What I'm trying to say is that you have to take the good with the bad. You're highest high can only be compared to your lowest low. This low you're at now will only make your highs all the better.

But

You will never experience those highs if you give up in your lows.

Life is worth living.