[Serious] Hey Reddit, How do you deal with your Mom dying?

I lost my mother to suicide when I was 15, that was 14 years ago this November. She suffered from a lot of mental health problems and was constantly on and off her meds. For about a year leading up to her death my dad had planned on divorcing her and let all us kids know. He kinda manipulated us onto his side, but I'll get back to her death because I could talk about how shitty he is all day. I think about my last words to her at least twice a day, which were not what a great mother needed to hear her son tell her on her last morning alive. I remember getting called to the office in math class and my heart sank and I didn't know why, my sister was waiting and was crying and wouldn't tell me why the whole drive home. I spent the next week and a half in bed just thinking about it all. 14 years just passed by and 14 years the pain and emtiness is still there. But you learn to live with that empty feeling, sounds bad but it's.... well it is bad, but it is how life has delt the cards. The first few years is rough, especially when I lost my mother the "your mom" response to everything was at its peak. Don't try to hide or suppress the pain, just live your life the best you can and always keep her in your heart. I'm no therapist nor did I ever see one, but talking about it helps a lot. It took me about 11 years to figure that out. So share stories with anyone who will listen, it could be a story about how you feel, a funny or sad story of her, or a memory you have. Just don't keep it bottled up. and a good cry now and then doesn't hurt.

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