i actually did try and kill myself about a year ago. it was in early february and i had almost taken a lethal dosage of medication. i ended up spitting most of it due to fear and an ex friend called on me. but the thing i would have missed out on are recovery and getting out of a toxic (borderline abusive) relationship. its a very complicated situation but i am both very depressed and happy that she is gone. i dont think i ever could go back to her if she were to reach out to me. she is the one that left me but honestly she has done me a huge favor and doesnt even know it; i didnt even know it until now

that and.... i learned about the existence of some gosh darn adorable animals