[Serious] Male Rape Victims, what's your story?

Late to this thread but, I want to put this out here Incase something similar has happened to anyone else and make sure they know it really was rape, I know I struggled with it.

I had just moved to a new to a new state with my family so I had no friends and was quite lonely. I have always been pretty lonely and long for a relationship so I would always be on tinder and bumble. I meet one woman who was 30 ish and I was 21 at the time. She seemed a little weird but I thought she was pretty and she didn't want commitment so my monkey brain was okay with that. So eventually I have her over, she comes over and I don't wanna say catfishes but very generous Snapchat filters were used and not fully what I was expecting. Well I was kinda horny so whatever I'll do it. So we had sex and post nut clarity plus she started acting even weirder than before, like clingy and seemed very unstable. I was getting very weirded out and uncomfortable so I was trying to plan a way to get her out and never talk to her again. Well my parents called for dinner so I left my room, ate dinner and then came back to my room. I told her that I think she should leave and that I didn't think I wanted to she her again and she started breaking down crying. She was asking me all these questions like why is she ugly, why does everyone do this yada yada. I try and some what comfort her but also being like yeah I'm sorry but still please leave. But I decided to give her a few minutes. So after a few minutes she then wants to have sex again and I tell her no. She kept going after my dick and I kept telling her no, after a bit I gave in to letting her touch me thinking it would stop but she kept asking me to let her blow me. I kept saying no over and over again but eventually again I gave in thinking this would be the end. But it wasn't she again pressured me over and over again to let her fuck me. I kept saying no over and over and over again, at one point she just stopped caring and push me down and rode me. I just laid there like a corpse staring at a wall wishing for death or to be somewhere else wishing it was a dream. At some point she finished I don't know how long and she got dressed and I told her she needed to leave and she was all happy. As I was letting her out she says to me"Did you have fun?" I didn't respond and then she goes "Hahaha did I rape you??" Completely joking and unware that yes, yes you fucking did. I let her out and immediately blocked her. I never reported it for multiple reasons, because I feared she would say I raped her, that I did have sex just a bit before with her so it wouldn't be rape, I didn't know if this new (southern) state if men could be raped and didn't want to find out, didn't feel like talking to police and answering questions along with the fact I really only had her first name I think.

It was a horrible experience I wish on no one. Rape and sexual assault scenes in movies always used to be hard to watch but after that it was impossible. I was showing an Ex Pulp Fiction and completely forgot about the basement rape scene, Right before it I remembered what was about to happen and withdrawaled into myself and hid under the pillow until it was over like a child watching a scary movie. Rape unsurprisingly sucks and breaks people.

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