My sister who was 4 years older than me always had problems sleeping even to this day she says she needs the tv on the whole night to sleep and when it turns off she wakes up. So when we were kids before we had tv's she said it helped when i slept with her in here room. The incident happened when i was about 10 idk kind of blocked it from my memory, but as my sister turned 12 and over i always remember my dad being sort of mad anytime i slept in her room never understanding why, and wish i did. So my mom, sister and I always gave backrubs together nothing pervy here just the set up for the fucked up shit, it was like a family bonding thing we did and my sister and i had bad backs from scoliosis so this wasnt creepy. Then when i was around ten for about a month the few times i would sleep in my sisters room she came up with this game called spider... oddly enough she is now super terrified of spiders and im just making this correlation now i think it could be guilt driven. So the game was u tried tickling them or whatever and the person had to have their eyes closed and not move and it was innocent. Then one night she wanted us to play so im laying their and she puts my hands down her pants and eventually finger in her vagina. Its weird I know private parts are private and thats about it i have a sense it wrong and am struggling with what to do thinking about getting up and leaving idk anything. Then she stops though so im still laying their eyes closed like an idiot still and she pulls out my dick and puts it in her mouth. Thats all the details I know, dont remember how it ended or how i got out of her room just that it was my last time in there and always thought it was my fault for not understanding why my dad was angry when i was in their while my mom thought it was sweet. Also many years later around 21 years old was super drunk with family and my sister was being a huge bitch for like the past month and that night especially and i finally told my parents she raped me and most of the details im saying now they just calmed us down ended the night and never brought it up again. Fucking pissed about my parents playing dumb here to be honest.