[SERIOUS] Men of reddit, who are unable to share their emotions with anyone, what would you like to share?

Back in the summer I was well on my way to drinking myself into a very early grave. Quit drinking over 2 months ago, which has been obviously good for my physical health, but terrible for my mental health. I was in a war when I was younger, been drinking heavily to drown the PTSD, depression, anxiety, insomnia, all that fun stuff. Now I'm sober I can't drown it out or make the thoughts of wanting to press my off button go away. Also been living alone since March in a new town where I don't know anyone. Literally the only people in my life are my alcoholic parents that I don't talk to much anymore because they're always drinking, and talking to drunk people makes me craze the booze more. before moving to this new city in march I was homeless for a little over a year. At this point after homelessness and months of quarantine I think ive completely forgotten how to socialize. Shits lonely man, I miss having someone that cares about me to fall asleep next to.

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