I had too much to drink and one of my roommates walked me to our house then went back to the bar. I stumbled into my room and laid down. All I remember is a girl who lived near our house who came to our parties a few times walked in my room, got me hard, and started riding me. I didn’t know her name and I never saw her again. It was dark but I know she was a blonde. I didn’t want to have sex with her, but that’s what happened. I was talking about it with my wife when we took mushrooms a few months ago and she said “dude, she raped you” and it all clicked. I was conditioned to chalk it up as a “win” for 15 yrs. Rape is rape though.