I dated a girl for almost 2 years when I was in high school that would emotionally and physically abuse me. This still really effects me today as I came out of it extremely damaged, depressed and angry as hell.

I was in high school and the relationship had been going along swimmingly for roughly 3 months when things started going downhill. Ideally I should have gotten out then but this was my first big relationship and I really was in love. Things slowly slid down and down the slippery slope where arguments became the norm and I was getting told off for not being able to respond to text messages instantly or missing a bus etc. Just really tiny things, irrational things.

Pathetic is a word I grew really accustom to and I still have a strong dislike for today. She called me pathetic almost every single fucking day for well over a year. She isolated me from my friends and attempted to isolate me from my fucking family. If I even argued back she would go on massive tirades saying she was going to kill herself or she would turn the tables on me and play the victim. One time I was teaching her something and I said "There you go, you have it down pat!", she stormed out of the house and started throwing insult after insult at me... 3 hours later I found out she thought I had called her the nickname of a girl we were sorta friends with called "Pat".

Physical abuse started about a year in. I'd get punched while she was throwing one of her fits at me, hard enough to leave a bruise. This then became the norm and once a fortnight I'd be getting hit. People were seeing this and while they were concerned about me, they couldn't really do much because I was "In love" with her and wouldn't leave. Some fits would result in me being kicked in the balls or having bruises all over my arms and chest, and once I had a black eye.

I haven't really sought help. I suffer from depression and I get irrationally angry at myself and the world occasionally. I am currently with an amazing girl though and while I hated it all I wouldn't change anything because I learnt so freaking much about myself and people from the experience.

I probably do need help in therapy form, it's just summoning the effort to get it. Sorry if I made any spelling errors or it's overall hard to read, it's early in the morning here and I'm about to head to bed. Throwaway for obvious reasons.