Adhd pi (predominantly inattentive), comorbid major depression and ocd. I see a therapist and take medication 3x a day. Adhd seems to be pretty common. But imagine your life as.. There is something wrong with you. You'll never be as good as others, your brain is wired different. You love something, say video games but you are unable to play for more then 15 min at a time. You unintentionally sabotage all your relationships by not paying attention.. Your friends think you don't care. You're bored always. Your brain is always seeking that higher level of stimulation like drama, drinking, drugs. You have a hard time working. You're a "space cadet". Missing assignments at school because they totally slip your mind if you show up at all. Nothing engages you for more then 15 min at a time...if that. You dont know what you want to be in life, you are a worthless piece of society. Always so bored and lost in your own head. So many amazing ideas but none will ever come to fruition. Everything is so overwhelming sometimes you literally cant do anything.
The depression is a tertiary piece of that... Always worthless, always hopeless. Why bother with life. Hurting on the inside just want the pain to stop. But there is no real reason to hurt, so there is no way to fix it.
OCD: your mind is racing from the adhd already... Add in negative thoughts that go around your head over and over all day. Look the sun is out. Im worthless. Guess id better get dressed. Worthless. Think about something else.. Totally unable to get out of the thought cycle. I also have a safety thing, check door, leave room. Door locked? Lock door. Look outside. Safe? Check lock. Leave room. Dammit. Come back and check lock. Check window. Check lock. Look around. House is messy. So worthless. Cant remember to pick up. So lazy. Cant handle all this clutter. Arg i am so overwhelmed. Why cant i be normal. Im so fucking worthless. Clean for 5 min. Distraction. Shit did i lock the door?
Anyway, i lead a somewhat normal life and im more happy now (on drugs lol) then i ever have been.