I have sleep paralysis. Is it because I was raped a lot. There isn't enough known about it. The first time I REMEMBER being raped I was 5 years old. I am a male. My mom used rape me after asking me to hug her. Then she started sneaking into my room and pinning me down before i woke up and raped me. As I got older she used more force to prevent me from getting her off. Sometimes she would dig her nails into my head so thati wouldnt try to fight it. If she snuck into my room and I was just waking, sometimes she would choke me until I passed out and then raped me when I was unconscious. She brought friends over who did the same and then their daughters and then their friends some virgins, some of them up to 7 years younger than me raped me, mostly when I was in sleep paralysis. I have been raped by two sisters at the same time and at least 5 or 6 younger girls, one after the other. Also at least one made me pass out by choking me with their legs while pressing me into her body and then continued to rape me while unconscious. They would degrade me verbally and one I was attracted to many of them and came many times but still feel it was a violation and non-consensual. Because I was in sleep paralysis I wasn't always totally aware what was happening. I almost always resisted because I usually thought it was my mom raping me especially at first. Sometimes they would dop their bodies on my erection until i stopped resisting. Because I was in such state it was easy to repress and I thought sometimes it wasa nightmare or I would basically give myself a brain aneurysm until I passed out and forgot. It happened until the day I was finally able to keep a steady job and make enough to move out of my parents house for some reason i have mental problems. And when I did remember long enough to tell my father or grandparents they would beat me, not believing or in my farthers case denial. I have been raped by more chicks than I have had consensual sex with and probably you too. And to this day I feel uncomfortable when any female attractivene or not checks me out.