[Serious] [NSFW] Redditors who have been on the brink of death/legally dead, can you describe what it felt like?

I was a kid, and I've told this on here a long time ago, but here goes:

I was five and had a brain aneurysm (technically Subarachnoid Hemorrhage, as it occurred outside of the skull). They're pretty rare, and super rare in kids, but somehow I lucked out and scored one. The statistics suck: 40% of people who have one erupt die, and 66% of people who survive have some permanent neurological problems source. I somehow made it through with no major damage.

I remember a few things from the night before and the morning. I remember playing in the bathtub and my head hurting. My brother hit me in the head with a plastic cup when we were bathing and I was just in pain and I think I puked. I can still remember exactly what the cup looked like. We got put to bed and I woke up with my ear wet and went into my mother's bedroom. She said there was blood all over the side of my head and freaked out, thought I was stabbed or something, and brought me to the hospital. I was slurring my words and in her words, looked like I was dead.

My grandparents were set to fly out to Reno that morning and she called and they cancelled and met her at the hospital. This was in the early 90's in Alaska.

From what I can remember from my old medical records it had burst and due to my body being so small the blood had gotten out via somewhere on my head, the ear or something. I don't really remember. My mom said when I breathed blood would come out. They did the clip surgery. Due to my age and the event I don't remember much- I remember a big room with a small window. The smell of whatever they put on it. A burning smell maybe? I woke up in the hospital and there were presents for me and family members came by. I remember liking the jello. It's all in this haze of black. I think I was in the hospital for a few days but I don't remember anything but the toy chainsaw my uncle got me as a funny gift. You'd pull the cord and the beaded chain would go around the chainsaw and make noises. It was a funny gift.

I guess looking back it's really funny. As a kid I was so out of it and even a few years later didn't really understand the scope of it. I had a lot of crap happen during my childhood- abusive father who left, I have really bad vision (currently a -17.25 on the left eye, starting wearing hard contacts at the age of eight. I was just home and I guess the family optometrist was asking my grandmother about me a few weeks back.), and have a birthmark in my hair. I just thought these were all normal things growing up.

I've got an overdue angiograph in 2006 or '07. It didn't show anything so that's rad. I don't smoke cigarettes or drink (anymore), both are things that can raise the chance of another forming. I saw a neurologist a few years before that who put the pieces together really well for me. I have the classic neurosis symptoms- OCD/anxiety/depression, and none of those run in my family. His estimation is that the aneurysm jumbled up my brain chemistry a bit and put me on "a different course". My family says after the incident I withdrew a lot socially and just got really obsessed with things, a bit more noticeable than what kids normally go through.

Sorry for the text dump. But yeah, basically, had an aneurysm as a kid and remember bits and pieces and am lucky enough to be living now and functioning normally.

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