I don't know if its the right answer you are seeking but I just need this to get of my heart. It sounds so crazy if I think about it and that's the reason I have never told anything about my incident, otherwise they would send me into a psychiatric hospital. Sorry for my bad english I am not a native speaker and I am writing this on my smartphone excuse my terrible spelling.
One night I was playing counter strike and you have to know I am very good at this game. The reason I tell you that is because, sometimes I get way too focused, if I am under pressure. Nevertheless I can still handle the situation well and can clam myself down after a few seconds. But this time I felt a slight pain in my chest and the pain did not go away. However I did not care about that much and thought a small walk will solve the problem. During my walk with my dog I realized that I had rapid heartbeat and I was constantly gasping for air, it was very strange for me because I am very athletic and do lots of sport. Anyways I tried to calm myself down and to control my breath, but nothing really worked so panic overtook me.
When I arrived at home everything went worse really fast. I caught myself in the mirror and saw my face. I looked like a 70 year old person,wrinkles everywhere, although I celebrated my 19 birthday in November. My skin was dehydrated and I was so pale, I never thought the skin can become that pale. I felt cold, although it was 22°C in my room. I tried to warm up my body but nothing happened, my body remained cold. ´ I lay down in my bed and tried to relax. But it felt so strange, like I was already in a dead body and my brain was the only party of the body who is still “alive”. The pain in my chest was so enormous that I thought my heart is going to tear up. I passed for a few seconds and found myself talking in superego. It was so strange for me, I could think clearly but my body was so cold and it felt like he was already dead. The only thing I had to do was to leave my body (oh man that sounds so crazy) Suddenly I lost my ability of thinking in superego and it felt like I am pushing myself into my body again. I have never ever experienced such a pain in my live before and I hope I will never experience it again. At that moment I thought I am going to die, my chest is going to explode and with that fear of dying I passed away in my bed.
When I woke up I couldn't remember anything, theonly thing I Could remember was me playing counter strike and thats it. After two days it hit me like a lighting storm. I could remember everything and what happened. I can't explain it to myself what happened there, but I don't want go through hell again.