My mom has always suffered manic-depressive and bipolar disorder and as she was divorced, had a few friends and me being her only child and living with her, I have been most of the time the target of her "hate crisis" as I called them.

She basically blamed me for everything in these moments. She attempted suicide two times, and she wrote letters saying how much it was my fault and that kind of things, when I was around 17. Although she gave me a good education, she never really helped me in life an she even bought some stuff on my name when I was 18, that I finished to pay only a few months ago (I'm 27 and finally got a good situation).

A few years ago, I helped her get through a brain cancerous tumor by cleaning her house, cooking her stuff, going to shopping for her, and trying to make her feel better because that's what children do for their parents right? A few months later, she blamed me again for something I don't even remember and I completely blown a fuse. I took the decision to push her out of my life because I wasn't anymore able to handle that bullshit and it was to the point to make me crazy, like you.

The first year, I felt really better. I was upset. The second year, I was sad not having my own mother wishing me a happy birthday and not being able to wishing it to her. The third year, well, it became problematic. I met an old friend of her and she asked about my mother. I wasn't event able to respond and that was hard to handle. I don't know if I'm stupid of if this is a normal "child behavior" regarding its parents, but I just wasn't able to deal with that anymore.

I contacted her on facebook two days ago (really interesting timing with that post, that's why I'm explaining all the story) and I'm about to see her today for the first time in years. I really don't regret getting in touch again. If I can give you a little advice , from someone who went through that and decided to end it: Just know on what you're getting into, because it's gonna be difficult whatever your choice. Be 100% sure.