[Serious] Parents who have had a child who killed their sibling, do you ever feel resentment to that child, how is your relationship with the child?

Throwaway account for obv. reasons.

I am not a parent, and I haven't killed my sibling. I am told I was almost killed by my sibling by my mom so this is the story.

I have an older brother from my dads side, which he had before he met my mom.

When I was an infant, my mom noticed something weird about him because it looked like he didnt really like me. Sometimes she would find me in my "babyswingchair" and he was pushing me and everytime I came towards him he screamed "i hate you, i will kill you" and stuff. My mom said that to my dad who brushed it off as "kids having fun".

One day, mom in kitchen, my brother played with me and she could hear me laugh and scream and at a certain point it all stopped.

She got nervous because I wasn't really a silent kid so she walked into the living room just to find me with a pillow over my head and when she removed it I was really close to suffocate(my mom said I looked like a blueberry). That was probably the last time my brother lived with us. It didn't work since he missed his real mom to much and my mom couldn't take care of him aswell as being anxious about my life around him.

Now it's all dandy, I don't think he remembers or know what happened. My mom told me when I grew up because I asked to much questions about why he never lived with us.

Thx, have a good day everybody.

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