Okay so, I very rarely post, but this is a issue close to my heart so I thought I'd share. I've been suffering with Anxiety and Depression for atleast 14-16 years of my life stemming from constant physical and emotional abuse from a young age (from others, not my family).

It is one of the most limiting things in my life, and makes me miserable every single day. It makes you question every little detail in your life, and twists and turns anything that has the possibility to be good into a negative horrible experience. I am currently in a relationship with an absolutely fantastic girl who I am thankful for her incredible patience, but everyday I sit there and will fret for hours and hours that she has fallen out of love with me, or that I am becoming an annoyance and I start to doubt my own self worth and importance and it puts a strain on our relationship (or in my mind it does). To me, everything is always my fault and I do not stand up for myself as my brain convinces me that I am nothing, and that I must have done something wrong so I constantly apologise for things I do not need to apologise for. I sometimes apologise for talking.

It makes me question everything about myself and everything I do and completely destroys any sense of self worth I may have had and leaves me an anxious mess with no confidence whatsoever.

To me, it's like my mind is a big room FULL of people. My rational thoughts being a tiny person at the back of the room quietly trying to say things are actually okay but being drowned out by a sea of people all shouting and screaming negative possibilities and just completely blocking any ability to process my thoughts rationally.

It makes your stomach churn, your heart race, your body sweat and your mind lock down.

I'm not a great writer, and my grammar is terrible, but I hope that answers your question.