(Serious) People who are/have been suicidal, what seemingly small or random thing has stopped you from making an attempt?

When I was 11 there was an evening I knew I would be the first to get home from school and be by myself for some time (because little sis had a school trip to the zoo which mum was also attending). I fully planned to slit my wrists, and knew the exact (sharpest) kitchen knife I would use to do it.

Sadly, that morning we got a phonecall to say that my grandfather (mum’s father) had passed away, so obviously they did not go on the school trip and I was not left alone to complete my plan.

Messed me up for a long time, I felt super guilty thinking that in some cosmic fucked up way my grandad had died to stop me from killing myself. Kid logic and mental illness are a powerful combo.

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