Still have it, so the battle wages on. In elementary school my life was basically a living hell. I had extreme low self esteem, which didn't help my school being basically a prison. No one liked me, I felt useless, and everyday was a pain, and there were so many days I didn't even want to leave my home I felt so gross. I basically isolated myself from the world, I played video games basically from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed. My parents constantly fought, yelling and screaming at each other. The friends I made on PS3 were getting toxic, they started fighting and 'causing drama. High-school was better, I made friends, got rid of the toxic ones, my parents chilled out. But even then I started to feel this "emptiness" I've always sort of felt, but never to this extent. And it has carried on to today. I'm 20 now and only recently starting seeing a therapist. I basically have no motivation for anything, I have no drive, and I'm almost always weighed down by this feeling of apathy and fatigue. It really fucking sucks, but I'm getting better, and not giving up. Slowly but surely I should have myself fixed! For right now I'm just trying not to sleep every night for 14 hours.