Same, by now ex boyfriend, who I loved very much at the time, cheated on me numerous times.

I now have a wonderful boyfriend, who I do trust, but I feel like my ex still casts an ugly shadow over everything. It didn't help he was abusive towards the end, when I found out he regularly said things like 'fine leave if you want, but let me tell nobody out there is going to love somebody as ugly as you, so you may as well just stay'. (I stayed for another 12-18 months).

I loved and trusted before so doing this again is really hard for fear of being ripped up again. I never feel good enough and sometimes question why wouldn't my current boyfriend do that as well. Current bf thinks I do not trust him. It's hard to explain that I do, but I'm scared that trust will be broken. Also after spending at least a year being called ugly by somebody you love and then being hounded by their friends online to repeat this to you, really does make it hard for me to believe current bf when he says that I'm beautiful