[Serious] Psychiatrists/Psychologists of Reddit, what is the most profound or insightful thing you have ever heard from a patient with a mental illness?

You have no idea how much I relate to this. The only reason I have to live is my child. Who actually saved me, but I still don't feel joy the way others describe it and in the way I see it in their faces. Medication can only take me so far. I think apart of me has died. A shell of my former self I once was a child. Because I can remember a time I felt joy. I just can't remember the feeling. I'm just not the same person anyone. Somethings changed inside me. I used to have hope I'd return.. but the years have passed and this is all I've got. I guess I should look at it like this, it's not as bad as it once was in some aspects. You say superhero don't exist? A year before I got pregnant I was in my parents spare bedroom (I got so bad I lost the ability to be alone and I never regained that) loading a shotgun. It was 3am. Apparently I was incoherent. At the time I thought I was lucid, but whatever. It wasn't the first time I was removed from my home and taken to my parents. It's been over 4 years and I'm doing ok. I don't do drugs nor do I drink and if I do drink people immediately know what's up. Trust me, your shit comes out when you're drunk. Like I get buck ass wild and crazy and don't give a single fuck. Not a single. damn one. As great as whiskey sex is with my partner, I learned. It's better this way. But I think im a great drunk, doesbt everybody tho? Most will tell me I'm awesome. But I know how to party and they just wanna get down and party hard and Jesus christ once I got going.... I brought the damn thing. I wondered if it tied in after I sobered up. But the reality was it was it was messy and dangerous. I was loud, crazy and so much more. Great fun if I was living a rock god, but I'm not. I'm some girl from the midwest. Maybe it's what brought me down and stole my joy. No one was supposed to have that much fun without losing something.

By the way... next life. I still wanna be a rockstar. Fuck it.

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