[Serious] Reddit, what is your personal battle in life?

Atheism and Catholic parents don't mix too well, to be honest.

It all started when I was probably 12. I would say I was a pretty mature kid, since by then I knew ever single detail about politics and the world wars, and I literally had my whole near future planned out (and still have the same plan to this day). I automatically knew how bullshit the idea of God was. I hated how every single Sunday we had to go worship my parent's imaginary friend. Even worse, I had to be an alter GIRL. Now, there's nothing wrong with that, it's just when there are 5 other boys eyeing up my gigantic boobs (at the time), then it's a pretty uncomfortable situation, plus the priest seemed rather "perverted". As alter servers, we had to wear a uniform that sort of looked like a homeless woman's dress, and in the middle of the 'dress' there was a rope to tighten it around your waist. He ALWAYS tightened it for me, always so my chest was very visible through the uniform. One time he tightened it so much that I had to bail out of the middle of a mass so I could try to undo it a little.

So anyways, I'll get to my point. I'm still under 18, and I still have to suffer as an alter girl at my parents church. For me, I feel like when ever I go to church, I'm wasting my life. I could do do much more but NO, my narcissistic-as-fuck parents think that God is more important. One time I tried getting a part time job on Sunday morning, but my mom marched right down to that place to give the boss a beating after I lied and said the boss made my schedule that way. This Sunday I wanted to watch soccer/football, however it was at 11:00AM which was during church, so I pretended to have a massive headache when the time came. My dad literally ripped my sheets of my bed and attempted to drag my out of it. He stopped when I started crying. I wasn't fake crying or anything, it was because I legitimately thought he was going abuse me because of how aggressive he was being. I got to stay home but they were fucking pissed. Religion is tearing me and my parents apart.

I have never considered even daring to tell them because I know my whole future will disappear. I plan on going to school over-seas, and if they kick me out, the possibility of that happening is 0. I would have no where to go and my life would be all wasted.

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