[Serious] Reddit, what's the hardest truth you've ever had to accept?

That I will probably never be happy, or even content in life. I've suffered from server anxiety and depression for about a decade now, with smalls bits or somewhat normalcy in between. I can't drive more than a few miles without freaking out, and I have a hard time with situations where I know I can't walk away if I feel anxious. I feel like I will never have a relationship because of it, because who wants to be with someone life that? I've been to therapy, taken drugs, the whole nine yards and I just can't get it under control. It sucks, because as I get older all my friends are getting married, having kids, moving, etc, so I just do nothing all the time now and it makes me feel worse. I was used to hanging out almost every night, it kept my mind clear now I'm lost in my own head. It probably sounds dumb, and I know other have been through it, but it's lonely, annoying and frustrating. I try so hard to work on it, but it just does not change. I'm sick of doing nothing all the time, and the rare times I do do stuff now I enjoy it a lot less for some odd reason.

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