[Serious] Redditors suffering from mental illness: how are you doing today?

Truthfully? I'm a fucking mess. I had to go to the doctor because my self-inflicted leg wound's steristrips came off. (Sobered up too late to get stitches.) I got out of the psych ward 8 days ago. I'm a fucking piece of trash and I'm working in therapy but it's just getting worse. Chronic (20 years) self-injury that I adore and it can't stop. I'm not suicidal but death would be nice. In have bipolar which is heavily medicated but my trauma issues are consuming everything.

I have an amazing therapist for whom I am so grateful. I pretend to be functional (I'm a fucking college professor!!! Not kidding!!!) I have an amazing SO and doggo. I just hate myself and want to smash and smash until it all shuts up.

Sorry if it's too real. :( Shit is real these days.

(As I mentioned, tho, I have lots of support and safety even though it's really hard.)

/r/AskReddit Thread