[Serious] Redditors who have attempted suicide: what happened after it failed?

Passed out at home, came to for a moment in an ambulance an an EMT told me, "it's never worth it." Everything went blank, woke up in a hospital bed surrounded by nurses. I apologized to them for wasting their time, they told me that it was fine because they get paid either way. My mom showed up even though she never showed up to anything, asked me not to walk in graduation so that she wouldn't have to make an excuse not to go. I was a few days shy of turning 18. A social worker showed up and started telling me how ashamed I should be of myself for putting my mom through all this and that I'm just another spoiled brat who doesn't deserve support. The next 2 weeks sucked. I went home and spent a long time riding through a guilt trip that i probably deserved. I was mad. Really mad. Not at anyone else, just myself. I switched schools and stopped talking to everyone I knew before with the exception of one or two people. After 3 months of awful, I managed to really get my shit together in a way I never had before. I started from the ground up and I ended up generating much more positivity from it than I would have ever imagined possible. Don't get me wrong, thwre was a good year where I tried my hardest to avoid thinking about it because I was completely ashamed and let myself feel crushing embarrassment and guilt, but I've gotten over that. I started bike riding, learned to knit, surrounded myself with good people and started taking college classes. I moved out of my parents house to a new city and got a job. I see myself as a separate person from before because everything about myself, my routine and how I valued myself had to be completely reinvented. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone, but I was able to get my life in order in a way that I didn't think I could and I have a greater understanding and a strong sense of compassion for others and their struggles. Everyone has their own shit, but it's all relative and something that may seem miniscule to you could be huge to someone else.

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