[Serious] Redditors who lost a member of their close family at a young age, how did it affect you and how did you recover?

I lost a parent, at 15 aka January of this year, so recently. You don't recover, the lose of someone close will always be a bother. Then again, mine was recently. It has made me more clingy to other adults because I don't have that parent figure, but much more afraid of other student's or people who are around my age. I cannot hug many people anymore because it reminds me of my dad. I am also very VERY torn up about it so I have become much more rude and aggressive. Iv'e taken my Dads political side and really gotten deep into what he saw. I guess I am a lot more negative, serious and aggressive? I have made myself feel better sometimes, i avoid conversion about him. I always refer to my dad as if he was still here. So i use things like "he is so funny." I have opened up a lot more to adults and been much more carefree about other problems of mine.

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