[Serious] Redditors with depression, or those who are just kinda down, how are you today? Anything you'd like to talk about?

I'm suffocating. A few years into my college degree, I had to drop out due to a newly developed medical disability a few months ago, as well as financial hardship from medical bills. I am now watching everyone around me go back to school as the semester starts up again and go on with their lives doing things that I can't. I feel like I've been left behind in life and have to ditch everything I've ever worked towards to start life over again from step one. The career I had spent years in college pursuing I would most likely be no longer able to do, but the depression masks a true reading on whether I would even be interested in pursuing that career anymore anyways. Even if I could medically return to finish my education, my financial standing is in he gutter and I wouldn't be able to afford it. My disability makes it difficult to even leave the house and most times nowadays I face a near constant social isolation. I'm only 21, I don't know how to handle this. I can't find a way to let go of the potential and promise I had had none of this happened. I really don't want to die, I'm just still mourning the life I had and I just don't know where to go from here.

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