I've never had the opportunity to talk to someone about being a sociopath. I had read most of these posts but yours stuck out the most as being something j could relate too. I realized more and more that I have the same attitude. I've suspected for some time that I'm a sociopath. Unfortunately my family would rather pray than seek actual help, aside from one pastor implying that I'm a sociopath I've just dealt with it on my own. I've never really believed in Christianity and putting on the facade of a good church going son while going to a gradeschool and highschool devoted to a god you don't believe became very tiresome. I went through all of highschool just going through the motions. I passed everything, played football, only cause it was 'family tradition', and I never made any lasting relationships. I don't regret it, I was forced to attend a Christian highschool and gradeschool. Now that I graduated I completely cut ties with any classmates. Which wasn't difficult after a a month. It's been a year since then and I've been going to school at a community college. Mainly for the cheap generals. After this semester I'm going to take a year off and possibly burn even more bridges. I would rather not completely be rid of my immediate family. Everybody needs a place to return to. I just want to be on my own and have a purpose. Even if I'm just a cog in the grand scheme. My older siblings lean on my father too much, they are completely in the palm of his hand because of debt. He loves them but like me he is very manipulative, but not in an obvious way. He is the only person I can compare my personality to, we are so similar and because of this we clash all the time. After my year break I'm going to join the army. Not for glory or personal reason, nor is it my last resort. The reason is because I want order in my entire life. When things are out of place I'm stressed. I've done well in school my entire life and I'm eligible for any job in the military. Using the military I be able to achieve more power, not for malevolent purposes or anything I just don't want to leave this wandering rock without leaving a mark. The way you lie is the same way I choose to manipulate things. I always try to tell the truth as long as that doesn't prove detrimental to myself or any future plan I won't have to lie. I'll lie when necessary.

I apologize if I dragged on too long or repeated any ideas. I'm forced to use a tablet at the moment so there will be typos. My account may be known by a couple people so I probably won't leave this comment here for more than a day. At this point I'm not quite sure why I typed all this up but any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Edit: Not sure if it matters but I'm a 19 and a guy