[Serious] Survivors of neglectful-emotionally abuse families, what was it like growing up/raising yourself, and how well adjusted are you today?

I was molested around 3-4 yrs old, by an older sister, Mom non existent, a single parent working 2 full time jobs, and after to failed marriages, and 1 kid out of wed lock, her jobs laying her off, having an affair with a married man who left her a week after moving in with us, it finally broke her. she went into a depression, went on welfare, hid in her bedroom, and wouldn't come out unless it was required. I was about 10 at the time, and already had a police record. Mom's constant claims that all men are worthless, men are shit, really fucked with my self esteem, and worse. I was failing in school, no discipline, running the streets, I was raising myself, and failing at it. Now, I struggle every day, thinking I'm a worthless piece of shit,

I hate living in this world, but I haven't the balls to kill myself, I feel like I am poison; I can't escape the toxic life I had, and I seem to manage to ruin every relationship I've ever had. I don't associate with my family anymore if I don't have to, I moved over 4000 miles away, and now I deal with depression, and high anxiety, low self esteem, basically socially inept, I'm an insensitive asshole from time to time, Fuck, I hate my life.

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