[Serious] Those of you who know or probably know that your information got leaked on Ashley Madison today, how is it going for you?

I'll go.

About a year or two ago I had just moved in with my (now fiancee) girlfriend and she has a job where she works a lot of nights. It was a big adjustment for me being alone with nothing to do and the shittiest nights were when I would go out with friends and come home and then have to sit alone and wish she was here.

I was visiting a friend with a cougarlife profile at the time and thought it was hysterical that he would just message real women and they would respond with "unlocking" pictures of themselves that were pretty racey.

So one drunk night I made a profile with the intent to just blast out a good 100 married women and get to see their naked pictures. The problem is that once I create the account (which was totally blank and never filled out) I had to pay to see my messages. So after some drunken hesitate I pulled out my credit card and get a membership for a month - I spent $100 at the bar, so what was another $20 or whatever it was?

I used a burner email so I wouldn't get spammed or anything and went ahead and sent a bunch of messages and got back 5 sets of naked pictures of real women. It was worth my $20, I thought it was funny - basically like a gonewild where people randomly send their picture only to you (without knowing who you are).

I kept the account for 3 weeks or so, did that another 2 or 3 times and then paid for delete since they said my account would still show up on the site no matter what unless I paid (which really pissed me off but I paid it - no way I wanted to be on there).

At the time I told my girlfriend about it casually - she thought it was weird so I didn't get into it. I said something like, "I was drunk last night and created a profile on some site and got naked pictures of like 5 random married women...you should really stop working to many nights." I never had anything even close to intent to cheat or do harm to anyone. I am very much in love with the girl I plan to marry - and was just as head-over-hells then as I am now. I just thought it was cool that some 40 year old would send me private photos.

Flash forward to now. I hear that they actually released the leak today, that it has names from credit cards and addresses (so I'm on there). Not only is there no way that my fiancee will remember that casual line (I remember it because I thought it 100x before I said it to her) but it's probably going to be irrelevant if any of her friends search for me. She is going to be shamed and embarrassed and told I am a cheater and there is probably a good chance she will leave.

She's at work now and I won't see her until tomorrow afternoon, so all it's going to take is one friend to look up her engaged friend's fiance and that's it. I've thought about calling her or showing up at work - but I don't see how that will help anything. I need to tell her when she gets home so if she does get upset I can explain.

I'm destroyed. This will be around the rest of my life. I don't plan on writing any books or making any songs or painting any pictures, so it will probably be the last thing I leave around when I'm long dead. And that pales in comparison to living the rest of my life without the woman I love. I couldn't think of a worse thing to do to someone.

That's how it's going.

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