I need help. I don't have anybody who can help me, nor do I even know what kind of help I need.

I dropped out of high school to battle cancer as a teenager. 10 years later, and I'm living alone and have held only shitty jobs due to lack of education and residual health effects, but the world just says "tough shit, get back on your feet." My last gig was pretty good, but I got laid off and now I'm struggling. I work all day every day (7 days a week) as a Lyft driver and I still can't pay my bills. I'm trapped and have no time or money to pull myself out of this situation. It's hard to find the time and money to do simple things like buy new clothes since mine are getting worn out, or to even grocery shop or cook. I have no friends, no social life, and no time or money for anything I enjoy whatsoever. Hell, even buying bare necessities like toothpaste hurts. I've cut every corner I possibly can.

I love life, I'm an optimistic and grateful person, and I've never asked for help in my life. However, things are getting so bad and I can't see a way out. I've contemplated suicide a lot lately, which destroys me, because I'm mentally stable and not depressed or emotionally ruined or anything like that, it's just starting to seem more and more like it's the only way to get some rest. Somebody could hand me $1,000 right now and it wouldn't change a thing, it would only give me a little more time before I deplete my savings. Shit's rough, broski. I've begged and cried out for any kind of help from the only remaining family members I have, but they're all tied up with their own things, and I just can't seem to find the words to convey the gravity of my situation to them. I never complain about anything ever, so I'd expect them to take notice, but it's almost like they don't care since it's not their problem. I don't know man, sometimes it just seems like having somebody look me in the eyes and saying "I believe in you" and meaning it would make all the difference in the world.