[Serious] What event in your life did you not really think about until you were older that made you realize how messed up it was?

My mother's ex-boyfriend's daughter touched me in a way that I only later realized was abusive. I was like five years old at the time while the daughter was thirteen and she told me that hiding in the basement and letting her stick random objects like markers in my vagina was a "fun game."

Had it been a much smaller age difference, I think it could have been chalked up to curiosity most young kids have about their bodies. But I'd like to think that a non-retarded teenager should know better than to put anything in a kindergartner's body. Oddly enough, I don't feel traumatized by this in spite of a pretty clear memory of it. Maybe I don't have any negative or traumatic feelings toward this experience because I was too young to "get" what was going on? Or maybe I just blocked it out? No clue. I don't know if I should be concerned over my lack of concern.

Makes me wonder if she was abused by one of her parents and that led her to think that that kind of contact with someone that young was appropriate. It still doesn't change the fact that she took advantage of a child who was much too young to comprehend the nature of her actions. I never told anyone about it because I didn't know it was a bad thing, and once I realized it was, in fact, a bad thing, she and her father had been out of the picture for a very long time. I don't even remember the girl's name.

The daughter was also physically abusive to me and would cry to Daddy when I didn't just sit there and take it. I distinctly remember her smacking me around once and I bit her on the arm as hard as I could to make her stop and she immediately ran to her father to show him what I did to her and that I did it for no reason. And, of course, Daddy took her side every single time. I never knew why she took such delight in treating me like shit.

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