[Serious] What lie are you living?

I've been squandering my inheritance on having personal fun, and my grandparents are still alive - they decided to give it to me early.

Backstory: I worked for a currency exchange company right out of college making less than I did when I was a Junior in high school and lasted 8 months at that job before losing my mind, moved on to selling life insurance at New York Life (fml) and managed to survive for 2 years doing that, then sold mortgages for 3 years over the phone (FML). Eventually went to work for friends who got funding for a start-up from Silicon Valley and became the Operations Manager of their previous venture, while they focused on their new start-up (in 6 months I tripled the size of the company in revenue and staff). I got fired in February of this year for showing up to work 45 minutes late for work after my team won the Super Bowl. Went on to start my own company and this is where the lie began... and hopefully is about to end.

I told my whole family about what happened, but little did they know that I had an attendance problem at the previous mortgage job due to going out and getting too fucked up to show up on time at - LEAST once a week.

So I started my own company in February and had some substantial cash flow left over from my last job, so I decided to drive from FL to CO and go snowboarding for the last month of the season. Got here, snowboarded my face off, was never happier, and then I realized I didn't want to leave. So I didn't. I stayed and used my previous contacts to get freelance work and subsequently worked on building my company doing the same thing that I did at my previous job.

So around comes May of this year and my mom says that my grand parents (in their mid to late 80's) have a surprise for me. So my grandfather sends me an email saying that him and my grandmother want to give me my inheritance early so they can see me make something out of it. It isn't a huge inheritance because my family is by no means rich, but it is still something that will help for the coming 10-12 months.

They say the only stipulation is that I spend this money on growing my business. Well, when I first got out here, I managed to acquire a very large client within the first month that paid all my bills plus some, and then they say they are sending this money to me every 4 months for the next 18 months. Stoked. Party, fun, no worries. Then the company I was working with went bankrupt.

Fast forward 6 months and I have gotten 2 inheritance checks from them, but instead of spending it on my company and to grow it further, I squandered it on alcohol, various other drugs, traveling and having fun in general. I've used maybe 1/10th of what they have sent me on developing my business, but I've told them that I've been making leaps and bounds to get things off the ground with this company. I've been lying to them (and my parents) about the strides I have been making to get my website up and generate new business.

I feel terrible that I've lied about what the money has gone towards, but it was honestly the best summer of my 30 years being alive on this planet. In some ways I feel guilty, but in others I feel as though inheritance is to be enjoyed and not spent business ventures. To be honest, I'm not quite sure how I should feel about this. In recent weeks though, things have picked up big time and money is starting to flow in. I also sent my grand parents an e-mail tonight that somewhat alluded to the fact that I slacked off a few weeks here and there this summer. Huge understatement.

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