[Serious] What is the Most Psychological Pain Someone has Inflicted on you?

I have had a pretty rough childhood, but to keep it short, my dad was never in my life, and my mother just walked out on me for reasons I still don't understand. From grade 4 to 10, I was speaking with a school therapist atleast once a week. Which I'm sure helped me a bit, but it was just easier for me to not think about. Maybe not the healthiest thing to do, but I was finally letting myself trust people, and it was helping me with finding my happiness.

So, I started dating this girl after highschool, things were okay until a conversation about my parents came up, which then turned into the only thing she wanted to talk about for the rest of the relationship. I asked for her to not bring it up, because it was still an issue for me, I became more and more drained throughout that relationship, but I stayed, I still don't know why. One day, when I was just finishing up work, I get a text from her telling me she cheated, and she was giving me back the Valentine's Day gift I bought her. Maybe a week or 2 goes by, she's texting me daily asking me to talk, I'm annoyed, so I go and talk to her, which leads to me sitting there in silence, hearing why her cheating was my fault, which somehow lead to "I know your parents left you, but some people are designed to be alone." I didn't know words could inflict so much physical pain.

Later that night, I went to every 7/11 in the city, and bought all the Advil I could (1 bottle at a time as to not raise suspicion) parked in a place where I'd have a nice view of the sunrise, and planned to end it all after seeing the sun rise once more. Obviously I never did, I ended up flushing all the pills. Now, 2 years later, I've completely given up on myself. I've completely isolated myself. None of my previous friends have texted me in almost a year. I'm in this weird state where I'm just working, and eating, with no drive, or any real purpose behind it. I feel like I'm just here physically, but not mentally, if that makes sense? I don't know.

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