[Serious] What do you need to get off your chest right now?

I want to be loved. I want to be the most important person in someone's life. I want to be the one who makes someone else's day just by showing up.

I move countries a lot, which makes it even harder for me to make meaningful friendships. The last place I lived I actually felt like I was beginning to love and be loved, but then we left.

I have depression and I hate literally every single aspect of myself. I find it so hard to express all the thoughts in words, and then I hate myself more because I feel like I'm faking it. I bawl my eyes out and then hate myself even more because I look so ugly doing it. I can never see myself being liked, let alone loved, by anyone because I hate everything about myself. I've never felt and probably never will be good enough for anyone.

I really want to disappear forever, vanish without anyone noticing I'm gone. I scratch myself with my little shark tooth pendant, but I don't bleed so I don't know if it counts as self harm.

I can't see myself being successful or hard working in the future, I just feel like I'm going to be stuck like this forever.

I want it all to stop, and sometimes I think the only way is suicide.

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