It’s terrible and sometimes I feel like I’m going insane. I want to have people to talk to everyday or go to when I need to vent.
I’ve tried making friends online but that doesn’t go well. I can’t help but feel like I’m just not good enough. Everyone is always too busy for me. No one checks up on me. No one asks me how I am. I don’t have family to talk to. I’m always the one messaging first.
The friends who claim they’re there for me are always too busy or don’t respond to me until a couple days later. I feel like days are slower and feel trapped in my mind. When I do reach out and try to talk I feel like I’m annoying them, so I don’t. The convo also always seems very one-sided.
I don’t know if I should keep trying to make friends or go solo and learn to be comfortable alone.
I totally get that people are busy and have to deal with their own shit. Idk if I’m being too needy or something but I just want to feel like I exist man.