Im trans lol
Im in the process of joining the military just waiting on a waiver rn and if my family found out they would Fuck My Shit UP
Im not even planning on doing anything about it any time soon either so im really trying to keep this shit secret, but ive also at least got the luck of being a trans GUY rather than girl bc i can still dress how i want and its socially acceptable. No one cares if a girl wears guys clothes, at worst people think im lesbian, but if i tell them im trying to join the military they usually drop it like "oh that explains it" or if not i just say some shit about how my hair is thick and curly as fuck and being in SC, absolutely FUCK thick curly hair cause the heat and humidity.
My family "cant" be racist or homophobic anymore bc they know nice gay people and black people now, so all of their hateful energy goes towards trans people instead now. Ive never heard a more hateful disgusting tone in anyones voice in my entire life like.. it is so unsettling, the tone they use when they talk about anything trans related. And my grandpa was in the kkk and lived literally in the last "white house" of what eventually turned in to and is still a hood right now. He said some mean shit, he really genuinely hated black people he just did not like them infact he NEVER called them anything but the n word bc thats just what he saw them as. But even HE never sounded as fucking disgusted as my parents do like.. its actually very unsettling. It doesnt sound like normal hate it sounds like fuckin psycho killers confessing proudly about how they killed someone. Its unhuman, the hate on their voices. They dont even have to say anything actually mean just their tone alone. Its like... genuine disgust.
My plan is to hopefully 1) get in 2) get deployed 3) get married yo my bf ive known since we were like 12/13 bc im not doing this shit alone 4) THEN see about hrt and all that shit cause THAT i can wait on if theres a chance it might fuck up those first two particularly the 2nd one. I want to do all of those things equally as much as te other, and im not gonna let one thing ive got my whole life to do fuck me out of the rest of that. And im never coming out to my parents. They can figure that shit out on their own, im not gonna explain a damn thing to them. Im gonna make sure im entirely self reliant or at least independant from them, ill have my car in MY name, i wont own a DAMN thing they could have possibly paid for so no clothes no video games no NOTHING, i wont owe them ANYTHING ans they wont have a single bit of leverage over me because they would do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING they can to fuck my life up when they eventually fine out. Theyve already threatened to kill my cat over bullshit arguments that happen once in a blue moon, and i know theyll do it.