I’m having so many issues and problems with my personal relationships it’s just driving me further into myself and away from others. My “friends” are feel like it’s necessary to just belittle me constantly and anytime I try to stick up for myself I just get out down further. Some of my other friends get the same treatment but they’ve been able to start distancing themselves but I don’t have the network or means to get away because I’m an awkward guy who struggles around new people and struggles socially, so I’m basically stuck with them.

I’m also still trying to get over my breakup with my ex , even though it’s been over 8 months. We both have such a strong love for each other and somewhat regret the breakup but as it stands we’re not currently planning on getting together again. It fucking eats me up inside constantly, she’s all I have on my mind most days and really gets in the way of things like uni work. I have constant paranoia about her like what she’s doing on nights out or if she’s with other people that causes me to go into a spiral of hating myself and hating the fact that I fucked up a perfect relationship because I was so deep and reclusive.

TL;DR I hate my friends but can’t get new ones, still not over my ex who still loves me and have constant paranoia about her.