Littered in my past are so many broken relationships and friendships were the people absolutely and truly despise me. Where I am supposedly the worst thing to ever happen to them

And I know I'm not perfect and do have a temper but honestly I like to think of myself as a good person. I try my best to act compassionately. I always try and see things from a person's point of view if we have a disagreement. I try and live by the motto of "if you can say yes, say yes" when it comes to helping people. But im truly worried that maybe I really am this monster. You know the old saying of "if everywhere you go smells like shit, check your shoe"? Thats me and relationships and friendships