This is my throwaway, for obvious reasons.

I've been diagnosed with ASPD from two separate psychiatrists. I've never told anyone... I've never felt the urge or impulse to let anyone know. At some point or another I've used every one of my friends and they're none the wiser, but they would connect the dots if they knew. It's a little terrifying to think people might found out and how they might treat me differently.

The only person who knows is another sociopath. We met and both just... knew about each other. Something about the way he made faces when he/others told stories, I just knew. He knew it in me too. After all, we both had to learn to connect proper face expressions with emotions... we've studied it so much, we know people so well, we knew about each other. He called me out on it first. It was crazy, unraveling every last detail about each others' past and telling each other the horrible things we've done to others. I've never had a better orgasm than when he fingered me telling me about how he molested his sister when she was a child.

We tell each other everything... when your "everything" is as dangerous as ours, it creates a very special kind of connection. In a way our trust is based upon mutually assured destruction. But it's additionally because we have someone who hears the worst we have to say and not only listens but it makes us like each other more. Literally no judgement. We've hurt and stolen from and manipulated each other but the funny thing is, we see it coming and we're upfront about it. The devil you know over the devil you don't, I guess.