I've been waiting for days to post this!
So some things had built up in my head Thursday night -- I was exhausted and hadn't slept well all week, I was grumpy from the weather, I was horny, and feeling a little lonely. It'd been a busy week and my boyfriend and I had had a lot to do, together and separate. On Thursday, we were both home from work earlyish, I had the next day off, and he said he was going skiing. I figured he'd be come a few hours but he was gone all night and my emotions got the better of me.
The next day, my one day off a week from a very physically demanding job, he knew I was upset still even though I was trying to be good, i couldn't help it -- when he asked what was wrong I started to say how I had no idea he'd be gone for almost 7 hours skiing and I just missed him, I just wanted him here, to touch me and be naked with me and if I had known how long he'd be gone, I would've changed my expectations but I just had no idea. I did say I was mad at myself for being so selfish, I wasn't upset that he has hobbies he enjoys, I want him to do what he wants, I just wanted him. He had to go work and I was getting teary-eyed like an idiot.
A bit after he got home, we started talking. I said how important skin on skin contact is to me, and how much I crave it, ESPECIALLY so when im tired. I said how sex is like food or water to me and I feel anxious and hungry for it after a few days. With our lives, and particularly my job, it's not reasonable to expect sex every day, but it's a goal. And even non-penetrative sexy time is good! We talked pretty clearly about our desires and I guess he was a little more vanilla than I thought -- which is totally okay! - so I told him how I see sex, initiation, foreplay (and how delayed my body responses can be, so foreplay is really important), what I want, what I'd like to work on, and things I love that we already do. He didn't have any outright desires or fantasties that he voiced but I mentioned a couple things I might like and the whole talk was so great.
Then a bit later we started gettin busy. He was fingering me SO excellently and I was so turned on with his cock in my mouth. Ugh. He was pulling my hair and pushing me around and teasing me and it was divine. He entered me in missionary and it was so awesome, I was super wet, he was holding me down and choking me, holding my wrists, jeesus it was amazing ... And then he came. And he's usually a one-time cummer, so he got off and laid next to me to cuddle and whoa, my emotions were running wild, I was SO worked up, and ..? He asked me to rub one out, which i do sometimes in these situations, but I just wanted HIM. I was still hungry for him. I sat up, a was kind of shaking, I almost started crying -- I had no control. He asked what was wrong and I apologized and said I just wanted him, nothing was wrong, I was just wanting. We lay there for a minute, he kissed my head and then I pulled his face to mine and we started making out. God, I love a deep tongue kiss. I started playing with him and he was fingering me again, i straddled him, it got pretty heated, he slipped inside me and I rode the hell out of him for a few minutes, geez I was so so wet. He slipped out and was soft at some point and I knew he was physically done, so I laid back next to him, still kissing a bit and holding back torrential frustration with myself.
After a few minutes he asked if I was okay, i said sure, I didn't want him to feel bad because I feel like it's my fault, like im too demanding and too much work. He asks if he can go down on me, I say, baby, you can do anything you want to me. He enthusiastically goes down, holy hell it's amazing. Im taking forever even after I start running my clit too, but he doesn't give up. After what seems like forever, combined g-spot and clit forces brought on the most significant orgasm I've ever had and as I was cumming he rubbed his other hand above my g-spot on the outside. Dear heavens above it was glorious. GLORIOUS! I smiled and it turned into an uncontrollable giggle fit and we both laughed and cuddled.
It's even more exciting for me because up until a couple months ago, I'd never O'd with a partner, ever. When my BF and I got together (just over a year ago) I had a super skewed view of sex and my role in it and basically it was this super anxiety-ridden experience I felt compelled to have so people would like me and I would feel valued. So, I've come a long way since then and my boyfriend is absolutely the love of my life. Since Friday, I've just felt so lucky and satisfied.
Tl;dr: got frustrated, had really constructive and open conversation with my boyfriend about sex, how I view sex, things I love about the sex we have, and things I want to personally work on. This lead to great foreplay, sex, and then the best orgasm I've ever had combined with a great, more concrete feeling of love and trust in our relationship.