You are absolutely right and I think people got me wrong. When I said the actions after OP's drunken state is unintentional, i meant OP should go easy to herself. She should blame herself for getting drunk so bad. And her friend, yes she doesnt have to forgive OP, and maybe OP's friend got tramuatized after the event. Its her decision but I think she can understand OP's situation. It is known by everybody that when people go drunk they can't control theirselves, they become something like an animal. Can you blame a wolf for attacking you? Its in their nature. BUT, she definitely shouldnt have gone drunken that bad. And OP regrets so much for everything she has made although she doesnt have a clue what exactly happened.